I have several dates that run through my mind often.
A day in May when I became a mother for the first time. A day in November when I became a mother to a little boy. A day in June when I became a mother of three and officially became a member of the crazy club!!! A day in April when I committed the rest of my life to my best friend.
I can tell you the exact day that all of those events occurred and probably a million other days where something significant has happened. There is one day in October that I could not for the life of me remember. I remember what happened on that day and I can remember that it was around the middle of the month but could not remember the exact day.
For 5 years I have not attempted to figure out the exact day. Guess I just didn't want to look at that day on the calender and remember the feelings I felt that day. Quite frankly that was the scariest day I have ever faced. A day that made me feel weak, scared, and alone. Three feelings that I hate.
Right now I feel strong, fearless, and quite possibly the happiest I have felt in a really long time. Our life is full of good news and happy events. Our best friend in the whole world came for an awesome visit! Scott just found out he will be a squadron commander... ROCK STAR!!!! So proud of that dude! My kids are happy and loving life. Which makes this mama happy! We love where we live and all the great people we are meeting. Life is just great and I love it.
I guess having these feelings gave me the strength and want to look up the date. I have known in the back of my mind for 5 years where I could find that date. So today I looked......
10.19.2006
The day my life began. The day I chose to make the right choices. To live every moment like it is my last. To rock the color pink and live like the rock star I am!
Looking at that date and sharing it with the rest of the virtual world makes me feel free. I feel like looking it up and putting it down takes off the cancer hang cuffs. Now I can remember that day as a good day and not a sad day. A date when the strong fearless me came alive. A date that now makes me smile!!!!
Gracefully I look up to my amazing God, thankful that I was given the strength to look. Thank you for the feeling that I feel right now. Thank you for providing us with an amazing rainbow of happiness. Life is amazing and I will enjoy every minute of it.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
