Chemo vs Cancer
I no longer have to go to the Cancer Care center for treatment, instead I have to go to the lab for blood draws. Every week I go in and make sure that the chemo is winning this war. The Doctors also check to make sure the chemo hasn't become complacent. Making sure there is no friendly fire killing off my team players that keep me healthy.
Chemo is very strong it appears to be killing off my cancer with force but it has decided to attack my good stuff as well. It has become complacent. Every week I go in and get both good and bad news.
Good news... Cancer is loosing!!! Bad news... Good stuff also loosing.
The better news is that my amazing Doctors have a solution to this problem. The worse than bad news is, that the medication to fix these issues makes me sick. So while I battle the side effects of chemo, I also battle the side effects of my immune boosters. It is getting a wee bit old. My lab work does not want to be normal. My body is fighting hard and it is a bit exhausting.
Yesterday I received another shot to boost up my good stuff. 4 hours later I started to feel it's love. This morning I am feeling the love a bit more.
For every 14 steps forward I go 7 steps back. I only go back halfway because I refuse to go back to square one. I am way past square one in this fight. I refuse to let this bring me down.
Jillian has made it two full days without shedding one tear. I need that smile to stay on her face. In a few days Jess will celebrate her 15th birthday and I need her to feel like she is #1 on that day. To make all this happen I need my body to get along. I need the cancer to die off and my good stuff to stay alive.
My God is way bigger than cancer. He is keeping our heads above water when all we want to do is sink. The Doctors are doing all they can to fix my issues. My family is right along side of me cheering me on as we all fight. God is guiding all of us through this storm toward a rainbow.
The Lord will fight for you; you only need to be still
Ex 14:14
