Because the Bible told me so.....

"For I know the plans I have for you",
 declares the Lord, 

"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 

plans to give you hope and a future"

Jeremiah 29:11

Many verses have been placed before me the last few weeks. I have written down and read and reread all of them many times. Today, this verse came to me and I am pretty sure this is the verse that will define this chapter of my life. I am holding on to every word of this and am putting all my trust in it.

Plans to prosper me and not to harm me and plans to give me a hope and a future. I know it sounds crazy, but I view this as a sign. A sign that things are going to turn out great. I have reread the words of this verse a 100 times today. I have reread words of my blog. Posts where I talk about my future. God has promised me that. 

No matter the outcome I am going to have a future. This is not going to be the end of me. Whatever the outcome, I will not be harmed. I will be OK. This gives me such joy. I know it is just a verse, I know that it is just words. To me they are words that speak the truth, words that give me hope and happiness. All I want out of this, is hope for a future and to not suffer. To not bring sadness to my family. To be there when my girls get married and my son graduates from the Citadel. All I want is to be a part of their future. To see what is in store for them and celebrate it when it happens. I don't want to be sick anymore. I want to not be harmed. I want to prosper, finish my college degree. Become a teacher, live on the beach with Scott. Watch his continued success and move 100 more times with him and our awesome kids. I want a future, I want to prosper, and I don't want to be put in harms way, this verse and God have made that promise to me. 

I go in on Wednesday to discuss the plan for my ovary. I know that the plan is already made and I am putting my trust in that plan. I am ready to face anything. I just want to know something and move on. If I have cancer, fine. Let the fight began. It will not harm me, nor will it be the end of me. I have too much ahead of me, I have a future. I know that this is just one step of many I will face. Now, I feel ready to face all the steps, no matter how long it takes. The outcome is, what the outcome is. Faith will pull me through all of it. Giving up is not an option. 

From today forward, I will live my life. Make my appointments, get all the tests done and fight if that is what needs to be done. If all is clear I will party like a rock star. Either way, I know it is going to be fine, because the Bible told me so!!!!

Gracefully, I look up to you God. I trust your words and your promise to me. I am thankful that You made this promise to me and placed this verse into my life. Thankful, that you have given me hope once again!