Pain Free is the Way I Want to Be!!!

No big brown truck parked in front of my house.

No person in a brown suit knocking on my door.

No UPS delivery.

I am beginning to wonder if UPS is playing some kind of sick joke on me. I am starting to think they are starting to enjoy watching me chase them down the street as they drive by only to fall to my knees in tears when they don't stop to give me my flipping Vita-mix!

Today more than ever I understand why I need to reboot my system. When I eat healthy and run everyday I feel good. Not the I feel good because I am doing what is right, the I am healthy and pain free kind of feel good. I was doing really great no pain or illness for months. In fact I have had the longest stretch of pain free living that I have had in years! Then the holidays came, Scott left for 6 weeks and I stopped running and eating right. I wouldn't say my eating was amazing before Scott left but my exercise routine was awesome! No winter blues here. There is no excuse other than I got lazy and confident that I had kicked my problem in the face and it was gone.

Yeah, well not so much. This weekend the pain returned and today the pain I feel is so intense that I had to call Scott and tell him I wouldn't be able to make a friend of ours promotion ceremony. That broke me down bad. I hate canceling on Scott. I love meeting him for anything and everything. It is like a unexpected date. Although not always romantic, it is time that I get with him during his crazy work day. I hate canceling on my family when my pain sets in. My poor family is probably so sick of me and my medical issues. I know I am!

I just want a normal healthy life! I am so fortunate to have the life and have. To not have a life threatening illness. I count my blessing every day for that. Right now I am sad, defeated and mad. I did this to my self. I can fix this, it is in my control. I know if I stick to my vegetarian diet, limit protein intake, and run at least 5 days a week I will not experience pain. So I am so mad at myself right now. I need to reboot and restart my life. A pain free life.

So my juicing plan is for more than just weight loss it is for my health. It is for me to be able to live. To be able to meet my husband for anything and everything, to be able to be a mom to my kids. Not the person they all look at with the, "here we go again" eyes. They are all so wonderful to me when this happens but I know they don't want a mom and wife that lays around. Hell, I don't want to lay around. I have a million other things I want to be doing! Although I do have to say this laying around always gets my creative mind going because all I do is look at craft blogs and store ideas in my head. OK so that is not good either! I need to live!

So juicing needs to start. Maybe if I send this blog to UPS my vita-mix will arrive right now! I know my Vita-mix won't take the pain away. I know that it will be gone or at least be less painful in 3 days to a week. I know that getting back on the right diet and exercise routine will keep it away. So yes people the pain of my detox is so much better than the pain I am in right now. This crazy plan is so worth every headache, acne break out, and hunger fit. It means I will be back on track and I plan to never get off it. The pain I am feeling right now is giving me so much motivation to live a pain free life!


I am so beyond ready to reboot my system!!! UPS please release the damn Vita-mix!!!



PS I have the tracking number and they say tomorrow is the big day! I was hoping they would hook a sister up and deliver it early! Lord help them if that sucker isn't at my door by 6:30 tomorrow night!