One Thing at a Time!

So, things are starting to move forward. An appointment has been made and tomorrow, I may have some answers. I know I will not have all of them. I am totally content with that. God only gives you what you can handle. Looking back on the last couple of weeks, I know this to be true!

I think I knew that all along, but it is good to be reminded every now and again. We have a lot going on, as you know. Two weeks ago, my appointment got cancelled the same day we received notice that we are heading to California. Although the cancellation upset me, I now see why it happened! Finding out you are moving across the county is kind of a big deal. Lots of obsessing planning and preparation has to happen. Scott, Jessie, and I have googled just about everything that has to do with Central Coast CA. Yesterday, Scott and I narrowed down our options and became content with our choices of schools, gyms and commute time. Today Scott received his RIP ( his unofficial orders) with his report date. We had a million questions about his job and, today he received answers. Today, I feel like we have most of the answers and are ready to head West. It is a good feeling, to feel like you have a good hold of something.

Although, finding peace in one area doesn't mean you have peace in all areas. There is still that whole lump and cyst thing. It has been nice to obsess about something else for a while. As we grew more content with our future and felt a little more relaxed about our move, we got a reminder. The reminder being, I still don't have answers. A phone call with an appointment date was a perfect reminder. Tomorrow, after a two week break I will head in the see the Gyn, hoping for a plan. Tomorrow we will discuss the plan for my cyst on my ovary. I am hoping it goes just like our move plans, and I come out with a sense of peace with the way ahead.

The mammogram result should be here in about 2 weeks. By then I am hoping that I will have resolved my other health issue and will be able to focus on whatever those results are.

See, God only gives you what you can handle. Appointment cancelled, because I could not handle  figuring out California and deciding on surgery or not. Appointment made before mammo results because I am not sure I can handle both issues at one time. So, I am perfectly content with the plan so far. I am not angry that everything is going the way it has been going. God is in all control and I appreciate the way He is handling this, one thing at a time. So to date I have only had 100 a couple meltdowns. I appreciate being able to focus on something else for a minute. The pain has become a lot more then I would like to handle on any given day, so my appointment came at the perfect time. We are going to figure out what it will take to get rid of this pain and give me my life back. After that is done we will face whatever it is that the mammogram says and it will certainly be only what I can handle!

I have enjoyed the last week and a half focusing on other important things in life. I had an amazing week with my kiddos enjoying lots of time with our favorite neighbors. The last 2 days, I have spent with Scott getting refocused on life and making a plan for our future. Life has been good! The break from it all was great. I will go in tomorrow with clear mind ready for whatever the next step is!



Gracefully I look up, thankful for one thing at a time.