I AM A SURVIVOR!!!

The Lord will fight for you;

 you only need to be still

Ex 14:14

I was still and I let God fight for me. Today I can proudly say.....I AM STILL A SURVIVOR!!!! My cancer is not back. I do not have to fight again. My lump is a cyst and is not infected with cancer. I am free of the yuck, free of the fear, free of the anger and full of happiness and joy. 

Prayers were answered today. News is good today. Life is amazing always. 

This journey was a tough one. I traveled it like I have never done before. I had read this verse when all of this started. I kept it close to my heart the whole time. This was a very long process and it took everything for me to just be still. To not freak out and strangle the base medical personal. From tests being lost, to results not given upon arrival, it was hard to just be still.

I was tested to the last minute, and I stayed still, knowing God was fighting for me. Yesterday, seemed long. This morning my phone did not ring when it was suppose to. Jillian had an appointment this morning so after her appointment we stopped by my Doctor's office. We waited for what seemed to be forever. The nurse came out, sat down and asked if I had heard from radiology. I hadn't. She said that they were suppose to call me because I needed more testing. What???? When did they know that? What tests do they need done and why? So down to radiology we went. Jillian's patience are wearing down as are mine. I calmly went to the radiology counter and asked about my tests and what further testing they need. Long story short, there was a mix up. They wanted more ultrasounds done on my ovary. Those tests were taken care of last week off base, so no lack of communication held up my results. When I calmly explained to them what I was there for, (the mammogram), they looked confused. One of the questions I heard them ask each other was, "Is that the one we are still waiting on?" My response, "it better not be, I have waited over a month for this". Stillness was leaving me. I could feel my face turn red and my hands shake. I was not in the mood to be still. I believe that is when I gripped the desk and to myself said, "Fight for me"!

He did! After some more waiting and watching people scurry around to figure out what was going on. I was handed a letter and asked, " Have you not received this yet?" Ahhhh, nope, sure haven't. The letter, dated March 10, 2011 states that mammogram is normal!!!!! Yep, a month ago they knew and didn't tell me. Why? Yep, not sure! Don't really care, because it is normal and I do not have cancer. 

I was still, I remained calm most of the time, and I let God fight for me. Your prayers and mine were answered today and I am cancer free!!! Happy, loved, positive, excited, fearless, amazed, blessed, and every other happy word you can think of is what I am right now. I am on top of the world. 

Thank you everyone for your support during this amazingly crazy journey. Thank you for you love, prayers and kindness. Words will never be able to express the love I have for all of my amazing true friends. Your light shined so bright. All of you are why I stayed still, you helped me more than you will ever know! I only wish you were all close because, I see a party with lots of pink in our future! This is a cause for a celebration!!!!! 

He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed,

miracles that cannot be counted

Job 5:12-14

Gracefully I look up, to you God....Thank you, thank you, thank you!! Thank you for fighting for me. For teaching me to just be still and let you do the fighting. Your love is amazing. My faith in you is stronger than ever, my love for you is deeper than I could have ever imagined it to be. I am so very thankful for today and the love you have given me. The miracle that we are able to celebrate again. Thank you for letting me stay a survivor!!!